It’s June now.
I feel like we were just celebrating New Years and it’s already summer. Time seems to be running faster than I did in middle school (hah).
I turned 20 years old in May and I started to think a lot about what God has done in these past two decades. Birthday’s seem to do that to you.
20 years is a long time.
Not long ago I realized how much I love to learn. Whether that be in class, in church, listening to others, or by myself at home, I constantly want to know something new.
I recently went on a trip with my family and I spent the entire plane ride watching Ted Talks (while everyone was watching movies). If some of you don’t know, Ted Talks are just speeches done by people on various topics. Check them out, you won’t be disappointed.
I learned about caves, jobs, the brain, lots of different countries, etc.
So I decided to do a little research about “20 years” in the Bible.
Apparently the number 20 is most popularly related to someone waiting for something. For example, Jacob waited to get possession of his wives and property, and to be freed from the control of Laban, his father-in-law, for 20 years. Solomon built the house of God in Jerusalem and his own home for a total number of 20 years.
These people worked, and waited. For 20 years.
Sometimes it’s difficult to wait. You really want to go to that trip that you have planned. Or you really want to get married. Or you can’t wait to have children. Or you just really want to see your best friend next month. Everything requires us to wait.
But how can we live in the moment now, if we are constantly waiting for something? I am not trying to say that it is a bad thing to wait for something better, but how will we know that it’s better, if we do not live today? How will we understand if we have gotten to the point of no more waiting? How do I personally thank God for what I have now, while also looking forward to the blessings that He will give in the future?
To be honest, I don’t know the answers to any of these questions. As I grow older, however, I understand the famous quote- “life isn’t a destination, it’s a journey”, more and more.
I am waiting on the Lord. I am waiting to see His glory soon. I am waiting until the day that I get to see my Savior in all His love. But this doesn’t mean that I get to just sit and wait for that moment. I need to work. I need to work for Jesus. I need to know Jesus and make Him known. I need to wait. I need to be in thanksgiving, constantly. Knowing that there is something better ahead should encourage me to live in the moment.
But that’s hard.
It’s hard when you’re 20 years old and not married.
It’s hard when your best friend is in a season of life when she’s having children and the only thing you’re taking care of, is your cat.
It’s hard when you know that your life after graduation is going to be so much better, yet you’re stuck in school for another year.
It’s hard to wait for God to do miracles in your life, when you can’t even see the simple blessings of everyday.
When we are single, we want to be married. When we are married, we want children, and when we have children, we want them to be grown and out of the house. When they are finally gone, we miss them and want them back. The circle of life.
And you know why it’s hard?
Because it matters.
When we look at the Israelites, they were constantly complaining. Always wanting something else. Never treasuring what they had. God brought them out of hundreds of years of slavery, gave them protection, food, and water. Yet , it wasn’t enough. They didn’t want to walk the desert. They didn’t want to wait. And for that, God made them wait even longer.
I can only imagine what was running through their minds. We are literally just walking around. How is this going to help us? Where is God? Why are we doing this? What we had was so much better. What THEY have is so much better.
Kinda what runs through my mind when I am in a season of waiting.
It’s like, God isn’t working in this point of my life.
It’s like, I’m just sitting here. Waiting.
But as I read the story of the Israelites, I realized God was doing so much. He was teaching them. He was watering the seeds that were planted in the beginning. And even though everyone that left Egypt was not able to see the promised land, their children did. And their children got to hear amazing stories of God’s miracles and His love.
God is always working, even in seasons when we don’t see much activity from Him. “During the season of planting, when there is no harvest, God is watering, nurturing, fertilizing and containing us so that in due season we can bring forth the fruit of righteousness He desires.”
Knowing this, lets live everyday like it’s a gift. Cherish every moment. Reconnect with old friends. Live as if we’re not waiting, but learning. Love the season that we are in.
Whether you’re single or married, in school or out of school, working or unemployed, remember that “For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven” (Ecclesiastes 3).